In John 8: 12 Jesus says "I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life." In reading that scripture I often wondered about that message in itself. Even though Jesus is clear to His believers. He reveals Himself and justifies His teaching. I know that we have said the sinners prayer aswell as asked for forgiveness for our sins on a daily basis but can anyone truly say that Jesus The Christ is their light? in the path that God has put me on He has revealed many things to me. In my witness to Him and in His Word, especially in his Word. In Matthew 24:5, Mark 13:6, and Luke 21:8 Jesus tells us that many will come in His name and deceive many. That was true then and it is very true now. A great example is the radio preacher predicting the world in May and now in October. He refuses to answer and man up on his lies and deception. There are many pastors some I have met and known and many I haven't who preach false doctrine and deceive many into a bad way of thinking and believing. I don't and never want to be that way so I knew what God did not want me to do. Even though I knew what God wanted me to do and not do, I knew that there was something messing me up. I started to look deep inside myself and I realized that even though I was saved, I did not allow Jesus to fully light me up inside. I started to meditate and truly look inside myself any many times I was scared to keep looking to see all of the horrors that was inside. I would see scary things and I knew they needed light but I prevented myself from truly explore. One day I decided enough was enough. I sat down and started the process all over again and no matter what I saw I would continue on my mission. I held tight unto something and keep going into my deepest place. I past all of the scaryness until I can see only darkness. It was a never ending abyss of darkness. It was the black hole to my soul where no light could get out and the light that did get in would eventually die. When I got deep enough inside I started praying. I said to God "I know I have prayed the sinners prayer and I know that I have asked for forgiveness. But Father there is a darkness inside of me and I know that only Jesus can light and keep it lit. I ask that Jesus becomes my eternal light inside and out." As soon as I said that it started to get bright. It was so bright that any evil inside literally just spewed out of my mouth as I proceeded to vomit. Now I am not saying that I will never sin because I am human and we all sin but I am saying is that the love and light of Christ flows within me. I challenge you to do the same. Truly explore yourselves, meditate and see whats inside. Go past the scaryness and see the darkness and ask Jesus to be your light inside and out. While He was always my light on the outside guiding my steps He is also now the light inside me that makes me a beacon for those to see. Through this beacon many will come to Christ and be saved. God Bless.
Rev. Josue Mercado
